Set Free

Here we were minding our own business.... Seriously, we were.  Let me prove it. I had just asked Jon to have a chat with him in the living room--just us.  We sat down and starting talking.  (Nothing serious, just marriage and plans for the upcoming weeks.)  Suddenly the door bell rang and my parent's dog started barking.  I was still dealing with my headache ( thanks to being anemic ) and asked Jon to quickly find out who was at the door. Who is at the door on a Sunday evening? Jon went outside and came back in.  Weird.  He said there was some guys outside with a semi truck full of furniture at a decent price and he was going to go check it out.  Ellie was sleeping so I went ahead and put on my shoes and a jacket and went outside with him.  (We've been on the look out for furniture and other random update items for our future home.) He wasn't kidding.  There was seriously a group of guys waiting around a truck.  One guy inside sitting on a nice leather chair with

My parent's laundry in the washing machine. Dinner in the crockpot. Folded laundry in the basket ready to take downstairs and be put away in our dressers. Taking care of Ellie with the energy I once had. Keeping up on the dishes.... because I'm still eating for more than just me. Being a stay at home mom and keeping up on the house, kitchen, laundry, and more. I'm so thankful to finally start feeling myself and be capable of doing such things. It's all perspectives Momma's. Two weeks ago I felt great and was doing these things. But I didn't know WHAT was coming. And now that I finally feel a little bit more like myself, I'm soaking it all in. I can shower standing up now. I'm able to get food without feeling nauseous or dizzy. I'm capable to do what I always planned on doing while living with my parents in prep for buying a house.  And that is: being a stay at home mom.  Meanwhile, preparing meals, doing dishes, cleaning,

As I reflect on my last post about Mother's Day , I am humbled as a mother. The Lord had already known our future.  He knew what was in store for us this week.  He knew what we were about to face head on. We were expecting baby number two.  In process of buying a house.  Preparing for our family to grow, we were excited to meet our new baby.  We couldn't wait to see the sibling bond.  We couldn't wait to find out what we were having....a boy this time or a girl? What we didn't know was God had other plans. He wanted to stretch us.  To bring us to our knees (or in my case sitting on the bathroom floor).  Sitting there, staring at the toilet I was once leaning over praying for a break.  Praying to not be sick. But now I'm not.  I'm not throwing up.  I'm sick with something else. I ache to never been given a chance to have a relationship with a child I never met. I ache for other mothers who have had to deal with this-- time after time.  I ache for

Today was my first official Mother's Day.  Last year I received a gift at church (they gave a pen to each mother), because the kids handing them out knew I was expecting.  It was sweet and touched my heart dearly.  I still have that pen.  In the diaper bag for a sweet reminder. :) However this year I woke up with a whole new reason to rejoice and be glad.  I didn't get breakfast in bed (YEP!), or get out of changing diapers, or any kind of special treatment.  Actually, my hubby joked that the carnation I received at church was given to me because he had called ahead of time to have them bring one for me.  Clever babe.  Nice work.  ;) Know my heart is not filled with envy for those who got breakfast in bed. Or got special treatment. Or didn't have to do "dirty" work. and maybe you got a special treat from your kids or a forever to do list completed by your hubby as a special thanks. I got a gift. It's the gift of Jesus.  Mercy.  Love.  Forgivene

As spring has yet to fully set in....I can still sit here and ponder at the wonderful blessings God has given us. A week ago I was holding my stomach pleading for a break from sickness. And God delivered. Each day this week I have gotten more and more time where I feel more like myself!  Yes, at first I was concerned about my baby, but I still have moments that remind me I'm still pregnant.  And I thank the Lord. Like yesterday I ate my chocolate bunny my mom forgot to give us on Easter.  yumm! I've done laundry, fed myself, and taken care of my baby girl without feeling icky. It's like a spring feeling!  I just pray it can continue to stay this way! :) Sunday I will be celebrating my 25th birthday!  Can't believe it's already here!  I'm so glad it's finally May!  It will be fun to (some day) take Ellie outside and on more walks. Jon and I are also in the process of trying to purchase a house.  I can't say much about it right now

I've been meaning to post more on my blog to keep my readers up to speed on life. However I was dealing with 24/7 morning sickness...and I don't think I need to go into much detail beyond that.  It's clear.  Going up the stairs made me throw up.  Eating too much made me feel worse.  It was all about balance. But for some reason (thank you God and baby) these past couple days I've been starting to feel better.  I'm still feeling nauseous from time to time and a couch potato, but a LOT better than I was last week.  Getting Ellie up from her nap doesn't cause me to throw up.  (Nothing like having to stop nursing to throw up in your nearby garbage can!) Such a blessing this week for the break.  Thank you, Jesus. During moments of needing to keep my mind off of sickness, I looked back on past posts I have made and noticed I need to continue the love story of Jon and I and how we came to this time in our life.  I need to talk about our proposal and on.  There'