Set Free

Almost got out of bed last night to write this post but I decided not to... it was already past 2am .  Here are some thoughts on what I have (or haven't) experienced.  Some of you might relate and some of you will benefit from getting a better understanding of grieving a child.  Please if you have anything to add to this "list" just let me know!  I tried to think of every option. What NOT to say to a grieving Mom. 1. First and foremost, don't tell this woman she is not a mom .  Just because you don't physically see a baby does not mean she is not one!  And even if you don't say it, don't make or let her believe that statement is true. 2. "God has a plan!" or "It's all in God's timing."   Don't even mention God and His timing in any context.   God's timing allowed that woman to become pregnant in the first place.  That brings up way too many topics that you don't even want to go to.  Or do you?  Do you really wa

Remember back in September when I shared with people I was expecting again?  After losing Taylor, I felt I was given a second chance.  This time was different.  When I had a day where I started to not feel "as sick" I thought positively because I had "mom-instinct."  Because how could you lose two babies in one year?  Why would I have to miscarry again?  I lost one baby a couple months ago, no way was I going through all this sickness again for nothing..... But it wasn't nothing. After Labor Day weekend of a lot of activity I was sensing something was wrong.  I had to deal with the fact....there WAS something wrong.  AGAIN.  I had to be off the couch all weekend and walking around a lot and I wasn't nearly as sick as I should be.  I tried to remind myself "it's a different pregnancy" and "God is blessing you with a break from as intense sickness because of all the stuff going on."   For some people, that busy weekend would just ca

This night a week ago I was packing like crazy preparing to move into my not-yet-ready-to-completely-move-into-yet house.  People questioned why move in before it was truly ready?  There were plenty of reasons, but not worth mentioning right now. Overall though it was worth to have our little three-some family back together. Jon had been living at the house for quite awhile and working on finishing up the bathroom. The day we moved in the bathroom looked like: We have a "usable" typical basement bathroom (aka it has plumbing) in the basement.  So those 5am morning potty breaks you have to go to the cold basement to go.  Or showering with no ceiling above you (Did I mention spiders possibly attacking your head?  yes I have a terrible mind that is always messing with me).  There's also the fact that there is constant water draining from a pipe from outside down the drain where you are standing in the shower.  Dirty water.  Yep, my life.  But overall, worth it.  S

Ellie turned 17 months old a few days ago. Hide 'n Seek is a fun game....except when you're calling for your daughter and she doesn't understand to say anything back.  And there you are...searching aimlessly throughout the house. So here's a post of all my daughter's favorite locations in my parent's house. This only seemed right since we're moving on Monday!  She'll have a whole new house to explore (and of course plenty of boxes)! The Kitchen Pantry:  What toddler wouldn't want to explore this though?  She likes taking things off the shelves, grabbing water bottles, etc.  Then she crawls around the house with one of the objects.  She also knows that's where her favorite snacks are and whenever the door doesn't get shut completely....she crawls in there to check things out.  Even though her food is too high for her to reach. Laundry Room: My mom and I have set up baskets in their laundry room to organize all the loads.