Tuesday, February 26, 2013

All uphill from here

My positive, motivated thoughts on moving have not changed.

We have no idea exactly where we will be living in the Ames area....yet.  But until then my parents are letting us crash in their basement.  Which is really nice of them.  A huge blessing while we search homes, and Jon starts his new job on March 11th.

My week is not going how I had hoped.  I was so excited to return from the weekend and get unpacked, laundry done, and start packing boxes until my fingers were taped together!

However Sunday night I had to stop.

I went to bed feeling a little uneasy.

Then about 2am I woke up even more uncomfortable.  From then on until 7:30am I had the stomach flu (chills, sweats, garbage bag, etc).  You get the idea. : /  Uuugh....just a bunch of ickyness.

Poor Jon could not sleep through it.  He had to return to work by 8am and I kept Ellie in bed with me all day.  She took great naps for me and we did fairly well considering.  (So thankful for a sweet baby!)  She let me nurse her while I was laying down.  Changing her diaper made me feel a little nauseous but other than that we did just fine.  I took a nap whenever Ellie did.

As soon as Jon came home (hallelujah for gingerale!)  I enjoyed some toast, applesauce, gingerale, and some more crackers.  I wasn't feeling nearly as nauseous but just had an empty stomach that hurt.  It was still unhappy with me.

The next morning (today) I woke up feeling a lot better.  But I get full really fast.  I was able to do some laundry.  And get a little bit more food in me.  I was able to have Ellie return to her crib for naps.  I don't feel nauseous anymore, just winded.  I have moved myself out to the couch now. :)

Yes, it definitely slowed my week down.  However I will NOT let it effect the way I need to get a LOT done within the next week!  I can't wait for this next step in our lives together as a family.  We will miss things (and people of course) here in Cedar Rapids, but we know God has something in store for us.

So here's to "a couple days off of my schedule this week" and thanking my hubby for being so willing to help his poor sick wife!  And to thanking Ellie for leaving her poopy blowout for TODAY rather than yesterday! ;)

Thursday, February 21, 2013


Moving is this crazy unorganized, crazy, stressful thing that happens.  Jon and I did it less than a year ago.  I was pregnant and so uncomfortable.  Sickness.  Ugh.  But this time, moving isn't stressful.

Instead of:
-going to new place
-feeling nauseous every time I lean over
-feeling winded with small tasks like a shower
-finding a place to live
-finding the nearest grocery stores
-packing boxes and boxes
-and boxes
-trying to find a place for everything
-cleaning apartment before you leave
-trying to figure out what you'll eat once you pack up the kitchen
-driving alone while hubby in other vehicle to travel to new place
-cleaning a new place before movers come
-unpacking and slowly getting things settled
-making the place feel like "home"

I feel this extreme peace.

And that is how I know that God is directing us.

For March I have no idea exactly where we will be or what is going to take place.

But what I do know:
-packing up our Fairfax apartment
-cleaning/checking out by the end of March
-Jon starting new job March 11th (or possibly later depending)
-Living in an apartment in Ames or at my parents during the transition
-Searching for a house to live in some day

And out of all of it.  I let go.  I'm not in control.  And I'm totally okay with that.  Crazy, I know.  But I feel so much peace about it.  Packing endless boxes doesn't stress me anymore.  I did it not too long ago, but I'm not pregnant this time.  My baby is not at the age yet where she'll "help" in any way.  When I fill up a box, I won't have someone unpacking it. ;)  I feel like this is the easiest move Jon and I have ever made since we've gotten married.

The first move was to our first place as newlyweds.  That was stressful.  Trying to plan a wedding while I was working full time and Jon was in school and working part time.  Trying to join our "two lives" into one, small apartment.

part of kitchen and office


The next move was to Fairfax where we are now (the kitchen and living space as big as our last apartment).

kitchen view/ living room

our bedroom

It was stressful because we had to find a place in less than two weeks, and we had no idea where to look.  I was pregnant and Jon was starting a new job that he had no idea what it was all about.  He was busy.  I was dealing with a hard, difficult pregnancy.  It grew us.

It grew us for this moment.

I have peace in this move.  Because it's the most stress{less} move we have made as a married couple.  And I'm so fortunate to have a happy hubby* along with me!

It's reminding me of the man I met, and I'm so glad that this represents the move.  We're on a journey that God has planned for us.  And we are both on board!  And I know God has the reigns.  And we wouldn't want it any other way!

*Side note: Hubby is a little overwhelmed with the move.  Not because he's worried or anything.  But moving in general stresses him out.  His mom is in the SAME house he was born and raised in.  Since I've known him, this will be his fifth move (two of those during college and one of them because we got married so those don't really count, right?).  While this will be my ninth.  It's not so crazy for me.

Saturday, February 16, 2013

My Valentine

Sorry, it's been awhile since my last post.  I've been stretching my thoughts to try to think of something to share.  Something mind-blowing (ha!), thoughts on Scripture, updates on life, or something I'm completely clueless about.  Because where's the fun in knowing what you're posting about?

There's been a lot going on in the past month actually, but until I can share all of those fun-filled things I'll just share details about Valentine's Day.  (In about a week I can share more details, but until then here's how February 14th played out.)

See, I'm a crazy head over heels for romantic gestures.  Oh, poor hubby of mine.

And see, my sweet husband is not a gift person, calendar, well, planner in general.  That's why we work so well.  We're a team.  I keep track of birthdays, our calendar, and just day-to-day so we don't miss anything.  And he keeps me sane when I go crazy with everything I have in mind to handle it all.

This all helps me explain Valentine's Day.  Because when I asked Jon what we were going to do his reply, "Is Valentine's Day in January?"

Oh, my dear love.  It's February 14th.  Well, at least he thought it was earlier than it actual was!

I knew this going into our marriage, which is a super duper good thing.  Why?  Because in my little planner kind of mind, I could plan for my husband to not know when holidays, birthdays, anniversaries, or anything that's "on the calendar."  It's better to already expect those kinds of things.  Seriously ladies.  It's good.  When you already know you're the one that gets in touch with in laws of birthday parties, gift ideas, etc.  It's just that much helpful.

So, moving on.  The night before Valentine's Day my husband and I had some really funny conversations.  Now, it's all perspectives.  I could have been really annoyed with these conversations we were having to have, but I knew my husband.  And he doesn't purposefully forget Valentine's Day.  He remembers my birthday and our anniversary and that says a LOT! :)  One of the conversations was him realizing he didn't get me anything (yet) and made a joke about it.  I could either laugh along side of him or get all mad at him and walk away...or whatever.  What did I do?  I laughed.  Really hard.

Honey, you are so darn funny.  How could I do anything, but laugh?

On the top of his head he came up with a funny poem he was "planning on giving me."  It was so hilarious.  Long story short, we went to bed that night and I gave him an idea that was simple but didn't have to be done.  It was just an idea.

He did it.

After he got off work he stopped at Walmart to get me a card.  He came home and walked straight to our office/guest bedroom telling me to not follow him.  While I was waiting I was just smiling.  Ellie was adorable.

Her and I had both been ready for the past hour or so.

And I couldn't be more excited about going to Applebees.  They have this great 2 for $20 deal that I was super excited to use for our Valentine's dinner (one appetizer and two entrees from limited options).  No cooking and no cleaning up!  Jon even said I could have dessert there too.  It's my very favorite dessert on the planet.  So, yeah I was thankful. :)

After a 20-30 minute wait, we got our table.  While waiting for our appetizer, we got Ellie out to enjoy so she would be content once we got our food.  Plus I didn't get her all dressed up and cute for her to sit in her car seat where no one could see her! ;)

Jon and I had some great discussions with new "stuff" that is coming in our near future.  (Which a future blog post will help explain.)  Tried to ignore the table behind us where a mom was dealing with a two and four year old and lets just say after numerous threats the four year old still did not want to obey.

While waiting for our food we opened our gifts to each other.  For Jon I got him a card and wrote a note (his favorite kind of gift).

Jon's is words of affirmation
Jon had given me a card from Walmart but also put a few hearts inside which were "coupons."  Each coupon had a chore he would do for me around the house.  Whenever I give one to him, he will do the chore with out complaint.

While eating dinner he couldn't finish his entree.  However I was completely finishing my steak, veggies, and potatoes (yes even after eating an appetizer).  Knowing my hubby, something was off.  What's up babe?

I thought this would taste different.  It's okay, but I would still pick *that* burger over this.  (That burger he found recently he has said it's his favorite burger.)  I told him go ahead and order the burger.  I felt so bad for him.  "Honey you should really like your meal.  If anything say something.  I'm sure they would understand."  But, no.  That's my sweet hubby.  Eats half of it and takes the rest home in a box.

And if you were wondering, we finished off that dessert good.

So yeah, I ate EVERYTHING on my plate that night.

I love nursing (eating for two!) with out prego sickness!  awww, a piece of heaven! :)

But back to Valentine's Day....

Once we got home I fed Ellie and put her to bed.  Then we watched The Dark Knight Rises (yeah for netflix!).  In those moments, I was thinking to myself.

Some hubbies go all out for Valentine's Day (flowers, romantic meals, etc.)
Some hubbies go simple and sweet (card, flowers, babysitters, etc)
Some hubbies go cheap but meaningful (kids, heart pizza, family games, etc)

While my hubby might forget, get me a card the DAY OF, and never hand me a rose.  I can smile and say, "My hubby gives me more than a card could say, more than a rose could give, or more than time could explain."

He comes home with open arms to our daughter, quickly runs to make the day special, and willingly gives up his favorite meal so I can have mine.

Happy Valentine's Day!!

Hope you got a chance to spend it with someone you love.

I sure did.

Friday, February 8, 2013

Are you a sinner?

Our pastor here in Cedar Rapids said something on Sunday that I've been thinking about all week.  We look at the Bible and read these stories as if the people in them were so strong in their faith that their story is in the Bible for us to recall.  However he continued, not so.  These men and women are human.  Just like us.  That's why they are in the Bible for us to read about.

It's a reminder for us to see that God loves us where we are.

Monday night speaker at Perspectives said something similar.  Usually when I hear similar things more than once in a week, I tell God, "I get it.  I need to remember this!" :)

When learning to be obedient to Christ, there's something to keep in mind.  God loves you where you are.  Whether you know 0.02% or 99% of who God is.  He wants you to be obedient to that 0.02%!

God gave Abraham his name because he would be the father of many nations.  But twice he gave his wife Sarah to be with the King of the land telling them she was his sister.  God still gave Abraham Isaac.  And even in the testing of Abraham's obedience with sacrificing his only son, God protected Isaac.

So after your heartaches, many struggles, when things come crashing down, or when you feel like your faith has been smooshed know something.  God meets you where you are, and He desires you at that place.  When reaching others in love, let them know that to be obedient to Christ is not to do everything right.  It's to LOVE GOD where you are!  Don't try and be a full 100%.

Just be.

Monday, February 4, 2013

Ellie Marie {4 months}

My sweet, baby girl is four months old today!  She is growing up so fast!  It's easy to forget all her little stages in life, so when I look back at old pictures it brings back memories.

This past month has definitely been fun with our little sweetheart.  For sure!

Here she is when I gave her a bath today....after her six hour nap.  Yeah, you heard me right, six hours!  This girl LOVES to sleep!  And I'm able to write this post because after being awake for over an hour and a half she was ready to go BACK to sleep!  Oh, silly girl!  We had a fun Super Bowl party last night and she took a quick little cat nap while there, but other than that she was awake.  I think that totally wore her out.  When we returned home I fed her and put her right to bed!  She didn't wake up until 8:15 this morning!  And then slept again from 9am-3pm!  Oh, Ellie....
Now I don't share this to make you all jealous.  Because geez the weez I don't know what I did.  Jon and I were JUST talking about this too.  We didn't really do anything to get her this way.  She just likes to sleep.  As soon as she turned three weeks old she switched day and night back around.  (Thank goodness because my mom had gone home before that!)  And then when she slept in our room in the bassinet I just gave her the pacifier to put her back to sleep if she woke up after only an hour.  And it did the trick.  Until she didn't like her arms to be swaddled.  Ugg.....that was a month or two ago! a-ha!  This month she learned how to change the fist into the fingers she wanted!! :)

You go girl!!! :)

When we first transitioned her to her crib a month ago, I was concerned about her waking up and needing the paci to return her back to sleep.  However Jon and I had planned to let her cry for no longer than ten minutes and then we would go in.  (Best to make that decision as a COUPLE before it's the middle of the night!  Just sayin'...)

So we heard her a couple times in the night, one time she would fall asleep and the other time it was the "I'm hungry" cry!  But after a few nights (or maybe a couple weeks off and on?) she had it figured out.  And she gave me 8 to 10 hour stretches at night.  Auhhh.....she makes me THINK I have parenting down.  However I know I DON'T.  Because I still question myself.  And I know each child is different.  Just because my girl put herself on a schedule does not mean I had anything to do with that!  So please understand that.  And know this blog is for FUTURE reference, kinda like a baby book, and not to show off.  So this blog post is more for her parents than for anything else.  Plus to show off her growth! :)

So, please, don't make yourself feel guilty or feel like a bad parent because your baby isn't sleeping at night or taking naps.  My second baby might have huge issues with this and I'll refer to your guidance.  It's just a matter of personality for the baby!

Ahem, back to my four month old, the reason for this post! :)

Last month she was sweet and good...and kicking her legs up!

3 months
This month she is sweet and bubbly (literally doing spitting contests with herself)!

4 months
But before I could get that picture.  You just had to sneeze!!

Hee hee.  Now I had to get the bouncer seat out of her bedroom.  Because we don't have her sit in it hardly ever.  Because now she's just so fascinated with her swing.

3 months
And now...

Her head is really filling out.  How weird is that to say??  [When Daddy read this later, he noticed longer legs!  Must be from all that "running" you like to do!]  She is long and lean.  Still in 3 month clothes.  However yesterday her pants that said 3 months were too short.  Hmm....sounds more and more like the issues her Mommy had growing up!

Next, for her 4 month photo shoot I put her in her absolute favorite spot to be (unless she is awake and happy).

Some day to compare, she will look so tiny.  However she looks so big to me now!

And she just couldn't help but smile for me!! :)

*How could I forget to put this in the post?  DUH MOMMA!!!  Ellie started to laugh this month!!!  Yeah!  Lovin' it! :)

Ellie, your sweetness is over flowing!  I can't wait to see your personality shine through as you grow up!  Daddy and I are so excited to see your sweetness love on others.

"Consider it pure joys, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds." James 1:2

"Rejoice in the Lord always I will say it again.  Rejoice!" Philippians 4:4

"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." Romans 15:13