Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Bath time to Blow outs

I wouldn't say today was the best day I've ever had with Ellie but it certainly isn't the hardest.  I would definitely say the hardest days with Ellie were at the hospital.  I love being at home now and enjoying the blessings of NOT having nurses and doctors stop in our room constantly checking up on things.  Ellie is able to nap when she wants to and not be woken up by constant reasons to be "checked on."  It also helps that she is now a little older and getting a routine sort of going. :)  She is also doing better at nursing and I think I got it down too.  I feel like I got a better idea of what she needs at different times.  It's not always an "I'm hungry" cry, and I'm figuring those needs out.  By no means am I saying I got this parenting down.  Geesh, she's not even a month old yet!

Currently she is asleep on our bed...she fell asleep while I was folding laundry.  She needed to fall asleep but usually in the evening/night she likes to stay up with us.  I think she knows that Daddy is home and wants to join in on the fun company! She fights sleeping as soon as she needs to fall asleep sometime around 5-7pm and takes quick 5-10 minute cat naps until she finally goes down around 11pm or so.  However tonight, she is actually giving us a nap this evening.  So now I get to spend time with hubby, however he fell asleep on the couch.  Hmmm.....time for a blog post. :)

But I think all that night time fuss is because she holds out until the night to give us all her stinky diapers.  When we were visiting friends and family my parents had her and changed four stinky diapers right in a row on Saturday night!  However tonight I think she got it all done in one.  And of course I had just given her a bath this afternoon.  I was nursing her and right after Jon got home she had a big blow out!  It went through all her clothes and on the blanket that was underneath her.  Oh boy!  Jon helped me get her into clean clothes.  So maybe she got it all taken care of and allowed her to be capable of falling asleep before 11pm?

Hope this doesn't mean she will be up a lot in the night!  Because she started to only wake up every 3-4.5 hours!!  That is REALLY nice and helpful. :)
Last night wasn't too bad at all....
Couldn't fall asleep until midnight, up at 4am (after 1/2 hr of diaper change, nurse, and burp fell asleep), up again at 9am to repeat.  Then she fell back asleep a little bit before 10am and I went and had breakfast and started my day.  Yeah for first child bonuses.  Sleeping in.....

Uh oh now I made all the parents jealous.  Not my intention!

By the way, Jon and I are super excited for this weekend.  yes, another exciting weekend!  We're not going anywhere.  Which is hard.  I nearly cried--pretty hard too--after leaving last weekend away from family and friends.  It's hard to stay home all day alone with just Ellie.  Honestly this whole stay at home mom thing is super awesome, but over here in Cedar Rapids it's pretty tough.  And that's why I am (and Jon) are super excited for this weekend.  Jon, Ellie, and I have each other all weekend.  We're looking forward to just the three of us chilling.  It will be nice to have Jon around on Saturday morning and the rest of the day.  Not going to lie.  I desperately long for some time with Jon.  Just the two of us.  I love Ellie to death.  And she is not the main reason why I feel this way.  Jon has just been really busy lately with work, and well, just life.

Well, I just heard my baby.  Night to all.

Friday, October 26, 2012

If I brush my teeth before noon....

When I was pregnant I didn't brush my teeth until after I ate breakfast.  I didn't want the gag reflex to kick in.  I wanted to make sure I had enough food in me.  It started the day off a whole lot better that way.  Trust me.

But it taught me how to prepare for a new born.....

If I brush my teeth before noon I'm pretty surprised.  By the time I get up and eat breakfast, take my medicine, feed Ellie, change her diaper, talk to her, and put her back to sleep....It's time for lunch.  Why brush your teeth right before you eat a meal?  Yeah, that's gross.  So I eat lunch.  Some times Ellie wakes up again so I have to sooth her and put her back to sleep.

By now it's definitely past noon.


Now I better brush my teeth BEFORE hubby gets home.

That's my new goal.

What's yours?

Thursday, October 18, 2012

Details of Ellie's Birth Story

I keep returning to my blog knowing how badly I want to share Ellie's birth story.  However it was pretty intense and a lot of it, I don't know if I really want to share on the internet for everyone to read the specifics.  Some people are not like me and are okay with hearing details.  Even the personal bodily function kind. ;p

However I'll list a few things to explain how things are going.

First off, Ellie is two weeks old today!  Where did the newborn go???  I feel like we already handed the newborn over and now we have a baby.  We're noticing changes already.  We love her so much!!  But let me tell you...she gave me quite the ordeal to bring her into this world!

I'm not even going to go into the nine month of pregnancy.  I think you all already know how the pregnancy went from past posts.  However if you don't remember, you can always click on a post from the side bar from the months of February through September of 2012.

Anyways, back to her birth.  Ellie was healthy and everything.  After that appointment of finding out we had to be induced, we got prepared for being at the hospital and finally meeting our daughter!  Once at the hospital, October 3rd, 2012 we got set up and I got an IV.  Remember this post?  I was so concerned about the doctor.  However the doctor was INCREDIBLE!!!  (ahem, I actually wished I had him from the very beginning.)  God is so so SO GOOD! :D

He checked me and decided to start the Pitocin.  My contractions became more regular but didn't really get any stronger.  They felt like my usual intense "girl cramps."  Yes, uncomfortable and I took the time to carefully breathe with them, but I was so used to uncomfortable cramping that it was not a big deal.  However I wanted Ellie to get closer to her Exit.  The doctor was so nice and wouldn't break my water.  Since I had so much in there, he was afraid it would cause the cord to come out before Ellie would, and then I would have to be rushed in for a C-section.  Thank you Lord for his wisdom!

Hubby-Me-My sister

The nurse (who I absolutely LOVED!) continued to mention how my contractions lasted a long time and they were close together.  Awesome.  They will only get worse (more intense) as the labor I was preparing myself the whole day.  I had family with me during the day.  We played Five Crowns and they were pretty surprised nothing was progressing.  By the evening the doctor had checked again and I hadn't made progress so the plan was to do Cervidil, which would help get things moving.  If nothing happened they would check me again at 8am (Oct 4th) and break my water....

It was hard to hear nothing was progressing.  But little did I know what was about to BEGIN.  He gave me the Cervidil (which wasn't a big deal by the way) after they let me eat dinner.  They gave me a sleeping pill so I could sleep since I would need the energy.  However once my family (and labor supporters besides Jon) left, my contractions picked up.  Yes, they were still close together and long however much more intense.  As time went on they got so intense I had to keep reminding Jon I needed his help during them.  I felt like there was no break between them.  (Later he told me they were two minutes apart or less.)  However in his mind he was thinking "sleep until they come in at 8am to check me."  So we had brushed our teeth and he was in pj's and ready to fall asleep.  I kept disturbing him asking for his help and he didn't realize what was going on.  We were both not prepared for labor to pick up in the night so we weren't even thinking of calling family to let them know my labor was progressing.

I threw up.  Ugh.  Reminded me of pregnancy.  However I still didn't think of telling Jon "Call my mom!"  For some reason my mind was so not focused.  All I could do was deal with the long, fast coming contractions.  Midnight until 2am I seriously can hardly remember anything.  Jon and I once in awhile would talk about labor days after and I could remember bits and pieces.  (God's gift to women I guess.)  Jon even helped me relax by rubbing tennis balls and I could hardly remember I had him do that!  Poor guy!

It was 2:30am.  I told Jon "I WANT TO PUSH!"  He asked the nurses if I could.  Then asked me, "Should I call and let people know?"  Oh my goodness, yes!  I was so side tracked.  I forgot to remind him to call family!  So the nurses checked me (in which I don't even remember them checking).  And they both said, "She can push!"  They helped me hold my legs and I got to push!  I remember the contractions were so close, I had no break to relax between pushing.  I was so exhausted.  So tired.  Ellie, thank the Lord you are so cute!

I got to break my own water! :)  (Jon could add some notes at this part I'm sure.)
My mom came at some point.  She later informed that she was running down the hallway and heard a baby's cry and was worried she had JUST missed it.  But then she heard me yelling and she knew she hadn't. :)  I also heard later that Jon had never heard me yell like that before.  I know I had never heard me yell like that before.  However, how else do you respond when you are pushing out a human without any meds?

So I did get the natural birth I wanted, for the most part.  It ended up being wonderful.  But I didn't tell you what happened after Ellie came into this world.
So I started pushing about 2:30am and she was born at 3:07am.  Yeah, she came fast!  Which meant lots of tearing.  (Okay I wont share any more details.)  I'll just say I had to go in for surgery and they gave me meds to knock me out.  I returned to my room and got to hold my baby (this time I remember but hardly remember anything after I pushed her out).  My mom and sister helped me nurse Ellie for the first time since I was so weak and the meds for surgery were still in me.

Finally, done :)

Because of all the tearing they later found out my hemoglobin count went way low and I was anemic.  Which pretty much means I have no energy at all.  The first time I went to the bathroom after labor I passed out three times.  Which was kind of crazy, because I had no idea that I had lost so much blood and was weak.  Thankfully I had a nice nurse during that time and she got extra help and helped me back in bed.  They gave me oxygen and I just remember really wanting to sleep.  I hadn't slept for SO long.  I was so exhausted.  Jon later mentioned when he went in to check on me in the bathroom with the nurse he saw me and I was so white.  He was very concerned but the nurse had him stay out of the bathroom so the other nurses could help "wake me."

I can write another post about the rest of our stay at the hospital.  But I can give a short explanation until then:
Lots of discomfort.
Couldn't move with out help.
Wasn't even able to watch my baby's first bath even though it was done in our room (but had hubby video tape it because I had to stay in bed).
Was given two units of blood to help my hemoglobin level or else I wouldn't be able to go home.
Enjoyed nursing my daughter and saw how great hubby was with her.
Was so thankful for a wonderful husband who helped me take a bath and wash my hair.

the end.  we were so glad to go home on Saturday. :)

Thursday, October 11, 2012

Thoughts on Ellie

My little Ellie Marie is one week old today!  We don't know what we did with out her.  I'm so thankful to not be pregnant anymore and to finally have that special cuddle time with my sweet daughter.

I love asking kids questions and hearing their answers but since Ellie can't talk yet I'll give you some info about our sweet little peanut.

She is the sweetest thing ever!  I mean seriously, look at her.  Who wouldn't mind waking up multiple times in the night to feed this little one?  Her sweet little noises are loud and Jon is still getting used to it.  It wakes him up.  I try my best to give him as much rest as needed since he can't rest during the day like I can.  However if he hears her, he asks me to check on her and make sure she's okay.  He is such a good Daddy!  

So far she sleeps the most during the day.  Only waking up a couple times to eat.  She makes up for it during the night.  She eats on average 10-20 minutes every two to three hours in the night starting around 7-9pm and then falls asleep for a longer length of time somewhere around 8am the next morning.  We have learned to go to bed when she does in the evening to get that first average three hour length of sleep before the night time of feedings begin.  After she eats in the night it takes her longer to fall asleep, while during the day she falls asleep as soon as she's done eating.  When my mom is not here to help I see myself taking a morning nap the same time she does. :)

But then again, she is only a week old so this information could change daily or weekly. :)  But we are surely enjoying watching her facial expressions--asleep or awake.  She does the half smile in her sleep and makes sweet noises.  We love it when we get to see her wide-eyed.  She is very animated!  

Big sneeze!

Big yawn!

Where are you Mommy?

I can smell the milk, but I just can't get it!

She hardly ever cries (as of now) and we pray it stays this way. :)  She is so easy going.  The only times we see her unhappy is when we change her clothes or diaper.  Not being swaddled and cuddled is enough to make the world seem awful, right?  We love her to pieces.  Even her squeaky cry that she does before her "real" cry when she's hungry. :)

Daddy's thoughts:
-He loves coming home from work and seeing if she's awake so the two can bond.
-He just said the other night he likes being a Daddy
-He loves watching all her facial expressions.
-He's doing great with diaper changes  (as long as it's not in the middle of the weeknight)
-He cracks up at the noises she makes while eating.
-He loves just watching her. :)
-He thinks she is very good-natured and will be a good, patient listener

Mommy's thoughts:
-I love the way she calms down as soon as someone hands her to me when she's hungry.
-I love the faces she makes in her sleep.
-I enjoy seeing her wake up in the evening for when Daddy arrives.  (It also helps the night time to allow us some sleep as well.) :)
- I love seeing Daddy help take care of her.
-I love her wide-eyes and all her sweet facial expressions.  Sometimes she looks like she's trying to tell us something.

We can't imagine our life with out her!  She is such a joy! :)

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Last Post (before labor....)

I prefer going into labor naturally.
I prefer allowing the baby to come out on her own.
I prefer nothing to try to "trigger" labor unless it's a contraction.
I prefer the most safest, natural way for my baby to be born.
I don't prefer these things to try to prove a point or be mean or anything like that.
I just prefer naturally because as a parent that's what Jon and I hope for...
I pray continually for my baby and body that it will naturally bring my baby to my arms...

I pray my baby is healthy.

Today I had an appointment.  I am exactly 41 weeks along in this pregnancy.  However that's based off of earthly things.  Seriously, really.  I don't know exactly when I conceived or anything like that.  However medically I am told I am 41 weeks along.  Anyways, moving on....

I was given a non-stress test.  For those of you who don't know what that monitors the baby's heartbeat and my contractions.  Whenever I feel her move I have to push a button.  The test came back just fine, like I thought it would.  So no worries there, because she moves around.  My doctor came to talk to me about how things looked fine with the baby.  I was so delighted.  The plan was to come back on Friday (4 days from now) and take another test just to keep track of her.  Then if I didn't go into labor before Wednesday, then I would be induced on Wednesday (10/10/12).  However she wanted to see an ultrasound just to check on how things were going inside. I was excited actually.  It had been since May since I've seen my daughter on an ultrasound.  I was looking forward to seeing her again. :)  It makes it feel that much more real.

The ultrasound was fun!  She was so precious and moving around.  It's fun to think about her personality.  Her hands were by her face, and unfortunately she was looking out at the world instead of looking at my back.  Which means I could have back labor unless she turns more.  But by the end of the ultrasound the gal told me she was already starting to move/flip around again, so who knows! haha!  She already has a mind of her own. ;)

After the ultrasound my doctor came in and talked to me in a serious tone right away.  Something is wrong.  She apologized, knowing I didn't want to be induced this soon.  However the ultrasound showed too much fluid around the baby (usually you hear not enough as a reason to induce).  I was totally unprepared for this.  I wasn't prepared to hear to be induced as soon as.....
TOMORROW morning!  Wait, what?

"Can I go home and talk to my husband about this?" I asked.

She apologized again.  Sorry, we can't.  I want that baby out so we can check on her kidneys.  She might have problems having a bowel movement.  She drew me a picture of what could be happening.  Thank you doc, because I'm visual.

I didn't really know that was even a possibility or how to respond.  So I just asked questions.  I was pretty numb and can hardly remember details.  So I just decided to ask questions that would be a concern during labor.

"How likely could this mean that I might need a c-section?"

She told me very unlikely.  The baby seems small enough.  I should be able to push her out.

Thank you Lord, my doctor gave me some confidence here.

She decided she better check my cervix now knowing the updated news.

Three centimeters dilated!!

"Doesn't breaking the water cause more pressure on the baby's head?" (Since brain isn't fully developed it can cause injury.)

Actually at this point, it will help get labor going for you.  And I am inducing someone else tomorrow so I'll try to make in time to deliver your baby, but if not the other doctor on call will be there.  He will be there in the morning.

Oh gosh, someone I have never met.
Dear Lord, help me!

You know you are a parent when you just have to let go of control and know God is in control and everything is in His Hands. :)

Jon and I are currently sitting back on the couch eating our last dinner together as two.  We are excited to meet our daughter.  It just was quite the whirlwind today!  I'm so thankful I was able to stop by Jon's work on the way back from my appointment.  Show him the ultrasound pictures and talk about the Decision. (Sorry I can't post them right now since my parents still have our camera.)  Jon was given three days off for the labor/baby.  So Wednesday through Friday I get Jon.  Hopefully during the weekend we can get things figured out at home a bit before he returns back to work.

Before long you will all get to see pictures and finally hear her name!

Blessings to all and hopefully we'll get rest tonight!!