Set Free

Honestly, this is going to be interesting to write.  I get to tell you the whole story of why I am 17 weeks pregnant and still do not have an ultrasound picture, have not heard the sound of the heartbeat, and no prenatal care.  Before you go into freak out mode let me explain my thoughts and then I'll continue on to explain the whole story! Why will this be so interesting?  First of all, there are SO so many details to it so some most will be bored by it.   However I know some are wanting to hear the whole thing to fully understand. Another reason it will be so interesting is to hear you say that it doesn't bother me that much that no one knows what the baby is up to in there.  Yes I would be lying if I am DYING to hear the heartbeat and to see the ultrasound to watch my baby moving around in there--nothing like "meeting" your baby! :)  But I am totally okay with no prenatal care and just waiting for the right "timing" of it to all fall into place. My

When idol worship is brought up "they" remind you that it's not all about statues.  It can be a number of "things" that you put before the Lord....like money, fashion, career, education, and the list goes on.  After a wonderful sermon they allow you to have time to yourself to personally have quiet time with the Lord and allow you to talk to Him about your idol. To come clean, ask for forgiveness, and be in love with His grace. However I receive this quiet time with saying things like, "Lord I don't know if any of those 'things' are a problem for me.  Yes I like to look a certain way or have a certain amount of money...but I truly have something else that I put before you Lord." Then there's silence. And the Lord speaks to me. I hear Him telling me that He knows what my idols are and He knows when I come to worship Him on Sunday mornings I plead for His forgiveness and with joy I find His forgiveness. Because all He wants fr