Set Free

the more I think of all the church services I have missed (and will miss) with this morning sickness.....that lasts 24/7 may I add....makes me ponder some things. i feel so far from God i feel miserable. i feel helpless. i am helpless. i am exhausted. my stomach HURTS . the gagging is getting old. brushing my teeth makes me barf or close enough. but seriously, Jesus, SAVE me! i am helpless. but i'm not far from God. God has never left. I just haven't drawn myself to Him. Father, forgive them. Forgive ME.

Ellie is 6 months old (as of last Thursday).  But this poor baby girl is dealing with a sick sick Momma!  Ugg, this second pregnancy has been much tougher than Ellie's. So thankful for Daddy willing to help out.  He's been spending extra time with Ellie while Mommy is spending extra time resting and getting sick in the garbage or toilet.  Daddy changes her diapers and burps her for Mommy's sake.  He even got Ellie to learn to say "Da-Da" and "Ba-Ba!" Ellie you are sweeter than sweet.  Mommy is so thankful she has such a sweet daughter, while she can hardly move! Easter marked the day your bottom tooth started to pop through and it's still making its way out.  You have a runny nose like a faucet and Daddy does a great job helping clear it out so you can breathe while you nurse. Ellie, we wonder if you'll ever know what it's like to be the only child in the family.  You'll be about 14 months old when your sibling comes along.  B

March 21st was the morning.  The morning Jon and I will definitely not forget.  (Well, I take that back, we might forget the EXACT date.)  However, we definitely will NOT forget the surprise. That morning, 3am to be exact, Ellie woke up to eat.  After that I got this.... I went back into the bedroom where Jon and Ellie were waiting for me.... "Umm, Jon....uh, Ellie's going to have a sibling!!" Jon knew it 99% sure before I even went to take the test. But God, didn't you know I already had plans to have my kids 2 1/2 to 3 years apart??? God laughs. For HE KNOWS THE PLANS He has for us. Even though we try to make them up ourselves. So to tell the family I got Ellie this: Apparently places don't have 6 month onesies that say, "I'm a BIG SISTER" on them.  Hmm.... :) I was going to wait and share with everyone once I was farther along but seriously, if you take one look at me it's not hard to tell.  I'm the walking stom